Thursday 22 January 2009

:-D

The Flowers went down better than expected.
:-D
I got lots of thank you kisses at lunch.

Kit xxx

Awww

She really is falling for me. Shit, this could be the most awesome thing ever.

Or it could go horribly wrong, if she freaks out.

It's a big thing for her. To all inents and purposes until now, she's been straight. It'll be alot harder for her than she realises, if she has to come out.

I didn't think I could fall any more in love with her, but I somehow managed it. We've had the most amazing few days together.

Now I'm just hoping she takes the roses I'm having delivered to her work today in the right way, or I'm gonna be in the dog house lol.
Yes, I am a die hard romantic sometimes.

I just want her to know I care.

Kit xxx

Wednesday 21 January 2009

Pictures of me - And more news!


This was me yesterday, looking grumpy, emo and a little bit like Ann Robinson.
...And my face was still swollen from my tooth :-(


I just like my eye's in this pic. Don't judge me. :-P
Well there you go, that's what I look like.
I errr Slept with Rachel again last night. :-D
She told me she's falling in love with me.
I live in eternal hope.
Kit xxx

Tuesday 20 January 2009

EPIC FAIL

My tooth has been so bad over the few days that my social life has died. I have nothing to report, really.

A lot of (not so) subtle sexual innuendos flying between me and Rachel. We're flirting alot now. But nothing else has happened.

I'll keep you updated as things progress, I promise.

In the meantime... should I post a pic of me?
Answers on a postcard, please :-P

Kit x

Friday 16 January 2009

Ouch.

That was a little uncalled for.

Was just out in town with Rachel and Amy, and Rachel had to get some money out. So we stopped at the cash machine. She turns to me and asks 'Do I owe you any money this week?' (I have her laptop bill on my credit card.) and I say 'No.' (She paid me last week)
Then she stops and looks at me.
'Oh that's right, I paid it off in Sex right?'

Ouch.

Cuz I'd sleep with you if I had to pay for it. I'm that fucking low.

Does she feel indebited to me somehow? Is that why she slept with me?

Thursday 15 January 2009

Sooooooooooooo

Okay.

Hi there people! :-D

I ummmmm....... yeah. Me and Rachel.

Where to start? Things with the Welsh lady went downhill last week. She was getting the typical Lesbian commitment thing. And I just couldn't cope with the level of commitment she wanted from me, with the distance involved. so I cooled it off there.

Then I slept with David. Which was probably the most stupid thing I could have done ever. I dunno... it was like...the moment worked for us, but I feel so awful just thinking about it.

I bought series 1-5 of The L Word on DVD the other day. I was watching it on Tuesday - trying to take my mind of the Awful toothache I had been suffering from. Rachel comes into my room, rolls us a spliff, then proceeds to get quite into the L word.
In fact, it turns out that she has the hots for Shane (who I look and act quite similar too sometimes) and that watching Lesbian sex really turns her on. We watched about 5 episodes, then she crawls into bed with me to cuddle up and watch another episode before bed.

We start watching an episode. She starts complaining about the lack of sex. I go on a mission, and put on the first episode of season 2 (where Shane and Carmen fuck for the first time).

She's lying in front of me, my arms are around her, and I can't even concentrate on Shane and Carmen now. Her fingers start tracing lines up and down my arm, and I start stroking her stomach.... before I know it, I have my head between her legs.

Jesus, she has such a beautiful body.

She stayed in my room all night, fell asleep in my arms. I watched her sleep for a while, tooth still killing me. Then I fell asleep. I woke up next to her. Made her a brew and a cig.

Spent the whole day freaking out.

Then she ended up back in my room last night. Nothing major happened. A few little kisses. Much cuddling. She'd had a bad day, and needed the comfort I think.

She's already told me she's staying in my bed again tonight.

*sigh*

So there you go, that's what happened :-) Sorry guys, I didn't actually realise people paid attention :-P

I really don't know what to do with this. I'm just going with the flow for now, because I don't want to mess it up. I don't know if anything will progress from it.
Anyone got any advice?

She's the closest person in the world to me. And I am to her. She's not a bitch, and I know she wouldn't do anything to hurt me. but I'm still worried that the outcome will be painful. She's my soul mate. It'd be so much worse if she ended up hurting over this too.

Kit x

I forgot. We were watching the first series where Bette and Tina are tring for a baby. She asked me if I would have a baby with her, like they did.
She really wants children.
We've talked about her having a baby before. That I'd be the cool auntie who wasn't actually related, but who may as well be.
We talked about how I'd be there to help her bring it up, and how I'd support her in everyway possible.
Now she wants it to be 'us' having a child. She wants us to do the insemination and everything.

...I can't think of a better way to spend my life to be honest.

Wednesday 14 January 2009

Epic Win

I slept with Rachel.

There are no words for how I feel right now.

Kit x

Monday 5 January 2009

Where I am from... a MEME of sorts...

I came across this on Tina's blog I think... I want to give it a go. I'm gonna write it through the day, and if I'm brave enough, I'll post it later.

Tina's Meme