Thursday, 19 February 2009
Well, if you do, or if you're just curious, check out my new blog :-)
It's linked to my writing blogs, and it's where I will be posting all my tasty Lesbian smut from now on. So if you feel like a good read ;-) head on over.
Hope to see some of you over there
Wednesday, 18 February 2009
It's been a couple of weeks I know and I'm sorry. It's hard to keep this blog up to date, as I have 2 others that I update daily. This place was really to talk about the stuff with Rachel that at the time I had to keep quiet.
Well given as we're pretty much together now, and everyone knows, it's not such a big deal keeping my thoughts and feelings under wraps.
But I will keep you all updated! I can of course vent a little deeper here, and it is useful. Plus I've had so many nice comments from you all (Thank you so much :D I'm really glad you enjoy my blog) it seems a shame to miss out on them ;)
So what's going on in Kit's world then? Well. I have signed my publishing contract, and I am awaiting my first Advance paycheck. I am excited. It's alot of money for me. Well. For Us.
I am buying one of these with some of the Cash -
For those of you who aren't Dawg, that is a Dodge Ram. It's beautiful.
There's a good reson for buying a pick-up truck. That reason is that me and Rachel are going travelling across Europe this summer. I will be driving for thousands of miles, and I need something sturdy, and reliable.
And god will it be sturdy when I'm finished with it.
My dad is a Mechanic, and I spent every moment I was with him from the age of 3 onwards working in his garage. I'm looking forward to having a new project.
I've managed to find a really cheap one. It's the 2001 model, and it's cheap because the suspension is cracked and it's exhaust is fucked. Off-Roading does that if your not careful.
Anyway, I can get trade prices on parts and I can do the work myself, so it will be cheap to fix up. Which leaves us more money for going away with, meaning we can stay out there longer.
So yeah! We're going travelling for months and months, just the two of us. I am so excited I can barely stay sat down. I have to wait till April till we leave, but really, given as we're over half way through February already, that isn't all that long :-D
And my god you should see the look in Rachels eyes when we talk about it. She gets all happy and excited and jumps up and down and smothers me in kisses.... I know I know too much info again :-P
I'd better get some work done now, so I'll leave you all again for a while.
Thursday, 5 February 2009
Lots and lots and lots of it!
Theres still tons outside, and it's threatening to snow again later, which, is not great news, seeing as I am in work now, and I would like to get home to my Beautiful Rachel at some point.
Yeah. My Rachel.
Well. We're taking it very slow, until we go travelling in April. She still has alot of loose ends to tie up, and well, I think it'll take her a while to adjust.
I remember how different your first girlfriend is compared to all those blokes that came before. It's intense and scary.
Girlfriend...wow. Perhaps I shouldn't get ahead of myself.
Anyway, she sang it to me last night. I play guitar quite often, and she sings along. It's one of those things we do to chill out. She has an amazing voice, and a real head for coming up with lyrics out of nowhere.
You should have heard her, it was beautiful. She was singing at me, looking me in the eye as she told me she wanted to be with me, and no-one else. That she was sorry for making me wait for so long, that she' s sure it's me she wants to be with.
I completely fucked up my playing at least 3 times because I was watching her so intently.
It was unbelievably romantic, we were just sat by candle light, smoking a spliff slowly together.
Well, until she curled up and fell asleep on the sofa, lol. But even then, I went and got her a blanket and covered her up, then did the washing up from the delicious dinner she cooked us, then settled down and played to her whilst she slept.
Eventually, I got tired too, and went and got my duvet to curl up on the other sofa. She woke me up at about 12.30 this morning to get into bed. So we did, and I spent the whole night cuddling her whilst she slept.
Damn I'm completely head over heels.
Thursday, 22 January 2009
Or it could go horribly wrong, if she freaks out.
It's a big thing for her. To all inents and purposes until now, she's been straight. It'll be alot harder for her than she realises, if she has to come out.
I didn't think I could fall any more in love with her, but I somehow managed it. We've had the most amazing few days together.
Now I'm just hoping she takes the roses I'm having delivered to her work today in the right way, or I'm gonna be in the dog house lol.
Yes, I am a die hard romantic sometimes.
I just want her to know I care.
Wednesday, 21 January 2009
Tuesday, 20 January 2009
A lot of (not so) subtle sexual innuendos flying between me and Rachel. We're flirting alot now. But nothing else has happened.
I'll keep you updated as things progress, I promise.
In the meantime... should I post a pic of me?
Answers on a postcard, please :-P
Friday, 16 January 2009
Was just out in town with Rachel and Amy, and Rachel had to get some money out. So we stopped at the cash machine. She turns to me and asks 'Do I owe you any money this week?' (I have her laptop bill on my credit card.) and I say 'No.' (She paid me last week)
Then she stops and looks at me.
'Oh that's right, I paid it off in Sex right?'
Cuz I'd sleep with you if I had to pay for it. I'm that fucking low.
Does she feel indebited to me somehow? Is that why she slept with me?
Thursday, 15 January 2009
Hi there people! :-D
I ummmmm....... yeah. Me and Rachel.
Where to start? Things with the Welsh lady went downhill last week. She was getting the typical Lesbian commitment thing. And I just couldn't cope with the level of commitment she wanted from me, with the distance involved. so I cooled it off there.
Then I slept with David. Which was probably the most stupid thing I could have done ever. I dunno... it was like...the moment worked for us, but I feel so awful just thinking about it.
I bought series 1-5 of The L Word on DVD the other day. I was watching it on Tuesday - trying to take my mind of the Awful toothache I had been suffering from. Rachel comes into my room, rolls us a spliff, then proceeds to get quite into the L word.
In fact, it turns out that she has the hots for Shane (who I look and act quite similar too sometimes) and that watching Lesbian sex really turns her on. We watched about 5 episodes, then she crawls into bed with me to cuddle up and watch another episode before bed.
We start watching an episode. She starts complaining about the lack of sex. I go on a mission, and put on the first episode of season 2 (where Shane and Carmen fuck for the first time).
She's lying in front of me, my arms are around her, and I can't even concentrate on Shane and Carmen now. Her fingers start tracing lines up and down my arm, and I start stroking her stomach.... before I know it, I have my head between her legs.
Jesus, she has such a beautiful body.
She stayed in my room all night, fell asleep in my arms. I watched her sleep for a while, tooth still killing me. Then I fell asleep. I woke up next to her. Made her a brew and a cig.
Spent the whole day freaking out.
Then she ended up back in my room last night. Nothing major happened. A few little kisses. Much cuddling. She'd had a bad day, and needed the comfort I think.
She's already told me she's staying in my bed again tonight.
So there you go, that's what happened :-) Sorry guys, I didn't actually realise people paid attention :-P
I really don't know what to do with this. I'm just going with the flow for now, because I don't want to mess it up. I don't know if anything will progress from it.
Anyone got any advice?
She's the closest person in the world to me. And I am to her. She's not a bitch, and I know she wouldn't do anything to hurt me. but I'm still worried that the outcome will be painful. She's my soul mate. It'd be so much worse if she ended up hurting over this too.
I forgot. We were watching the first series where Bette and Tina are tring for a baby. She asked me if I would have a baby with her, like they did.
She really wants children.
We've talked about her having a baby before. That I'd be the cool auntie who wasn't actually related, but who may as well be.
We talked about how I'd be there to help her bring it up, and how I'd support her in everyway possible.
Now she wants it to be 'us' having a child. She wants us to do the insemination and everything.
...I can't think of a better way to spend my life to be honest.