I just got in.
Basically, she just wants to mess around.
Yes I did it again.
That leaves me with a big moral decision. I have to leave David, I know that it's not fair on him.
But do I put myself through the torture of just being a plaything for her? Can I even stop myself from doing it?
I'd have to get out of the way for a long while and learn to control myslef again. Wait until she's got a new bloke or whatever, and she doesn't need the attention from me.
God I wished she loved me.