Monday, 17 November 2008


Yes, I have been quiet.

I don't really know why. I'm not sleeping well at all, what happened with me and Rachel seemed to fuck with my head a bit. I haven't split up with David yet, as he was almost suicidal on Friday, and I didn't want to be the one to push him over the edge.
That means I'm not free to persue anything with her, and I'm going to lose my chance if I don't do something very soon. God I don't even know what I can do.
I'm still not convinced she feels anything towards me, not in that way anyway. Sometimes the way she looks at me... She's so inviting, and it would be all too easy to take advantage of the situations we get in. I'm wussing out, which is totally unlike me.
I used to be able to pick up any woman I wanted, just by looking at them.
She's pretty much destroyed my confidence, lol.

Kit x


Lauren said...

Boy, that's a tough situation. I was in the same one with my ex-girlfriend, except I was the one waiting on the sidelines while she held on to her girlfriend unhappily. She didn't know my feelings because I was too afraid to tell her when she was with someone else.

But I wanted her more than anyone could have seen on the surface. You're girl may feel the same way, or she may not...but is it worth finding out?

Lauren said...

I'm obsessive compulsive and I just had to correct my grammar mistake from above...I meant "your," not "you're." Typing comments on my phone is dangerous for my OCD.

Dawg said...

Sounds like you are not ready yet .. not in the way of seducing a woman .. but in the way of sticking with just one woman. I am the same way .. I won't commit ..

Kit said...

I'd settle down for this one if she'd have me. :-(