Good Afternoon World!
First, the disclaimer. I am a real person, and this is my real blog. However for the purpose of protecting people from the truth, at least until I'm ready, I have changed all the names that will be included in this blog. That includes mine.
Secondly, the reason for the secretness.
I am openly Bi. EVERYONE knows. Not everyone is happy about this. My Mother for example, is certain I am still going through a phase. In honesty, she is probably right. Being Bisexual was a phase. I am in fact a Lesbian.
This is a problem really, as I do have a long term boyfriend. He is the kind of man that makes me wish I was straight. He is perfect for a bloke, kind, conciderate, funny, good looking, strong, a good listener... If he didn't have a penis, I'd be over the moon. We've been together just under a year, and although I do love him, I don't love him in the way I should. I think of him as more of a best friend who I occasionally have to have sex with.
Now I am experienced with women, having had more than one long term relationship with them. I never really got over my Ex, and she still has a very big part of my heart. The other part is held by my best friend, who I absolutely adore.
She's not interested in me in the slightest and it kills me. But, I am still there for her, every day. It tears my heart out, it really does.
So, join me, and if you think you can, advise me, as I struggle through the next few months of finding the courage to dump my boyfriend, dealing with the feelings I have for my best friend, coping with my Ex girlfriend having a baby, and dealing with my families reaction to my being a Lesbian.
Sounds fun eh?
Kit x x x x